Anyone else ever felt the chemo “working,” or just me?

How did my first chemo treatment go?

I am praying to the delulu Gods, it is not actually going to be as bad as people say it is.

What’s a little fatigue?

What’s a little nausea?

But it was bad. Worse than I could have anticipated. Cause I had a reaction that no one has ever had before.

My first chemo appointment started in this long line. I eventually check in, and spend a lot of time waiting.. which is code for stewing and stressing over what was to come.

Every treatment start with a doctor visit and he looked me up and down and said I was ready to start. Yay.

Anyone who knows me knows that I always take control.

So going through chemo was no different. I had a silk-lined cap, blanket, compression gloves, wrist weights, ice gloves, hand weights, compression socks, and ice gloves. I came prepared.

And then I left! It was uneventful.

That night I continued to feel fine. Good enough to even do some walking on my walking pad.

The next morning, it hit me.

I didn’t wake up to the typical chemo side effects, but I woke up to excruciating pain.

For five days I could barely move or function. I was dead.

The doctors told me to go to the ER.

So I did. Twice.

Over three days, I was in and out of two ERs, admitted to one, and almost admitted to another.

I was pumped full of IV meds that slightly helped the pain and was given a script to go home.

The doctors did check to make sure nothing crazy had happened, but they all kept going back to the same thing.

I must be feeling the chemo working. And they’ve never had a patient experience that before.

So is what the doctors are saying true? Is this pain really me feeling the chemo working? Has anyone else ever felt that before?

Because I really wish I couldn’t. 

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