25 Oct Life is Short
I only have one midterm this semester and for some reason it has been enough of a stress on me that I have kept myself in the dining room of the sorority house, studying from the morning till late at night. I have showered, but my hair is a mess and I’m wearing sweatpants. I’ve only hung out with my sorority friends while we’ve studied together but have not been able to leave my house to hang out with my other friends.
It’s just one midterm that I’ve had 3 days to study for.
It’s also for a course on Television.
This should not be happening.
I think this whole goal to get into grad school in the United States has really hit home. I mean, I always worked hard in school but something is different. Maybe there’s more drive, more determination. Or maybe I realize that these next few months could determine my future.
I remember a time when I wasn’t sure if I was even going to have a future. I was so sick and so isolated that I thought I would never get to live a normal life. Life to me, back then, was doctors and nurses, tests and strange diets, pain and sadness.
Maybe that’s another reason I’m taking this so seriously. I really never know if or… when, I’ll be in that state again. Yes I’ve been healthy for almost 8 years now [knock on wood] but as we’ve noticed with my luck that could easily turn around. Who knows how long an ostomy is good for… though I haven’t found the expiration date yet.. luckily…
I guess I just want to take advantage of everything life has to offer before I can’t anymore. I want to achieve the most I can and be the best I can be before I potentially cannot do that anymore.
Life is short right?
Ok, back to studying haha.