02 Jun “Steal A Hug When Arms Are Open, Grab A Hand When It Is Lonely, Give A Kiss To Fill The Silence, Say I Love You Whenever You Can”

I started writing this Sunday night, then continued Monday, and the internet wouldn’t work because it was raining so I never got to post it. Here it is a few days later…

I forgot how much I love to act. I forgot how amazing it felt to take over the identity of another character, live their life, feel their feelings, and escape from my own.

Today I filmed a Coca-Cola commercial for a competition they are holding.

I won’t go into much detail about the plot of the commercial because I’m hoping to post it as soon as I’m allowed [seems like it will be a couple weeks] but I will tell you that my character was a girl madly in love with a boy who was madly in love with her.

Girl in love with boy, boy in love with girl. Hm. No problem.

I showed up on location thinking, “pftt this is easy, I can act anything” but as I was being told exactly what to do and what facial expressions to make, I started realizing I really wasn’t sure how to be in love. I didn’t know how to show it in my face, my actions, and I didn’t know how to feel it inside.

Over the past little while I’ve had some crazy experiences all based around the concept of love. Family love, love for friends, and love for a special person. Over this past little while, however, everything I thought I knew about love has changed.

Guess this wasn’t going to be as easy as I thought.

To make matters worse, the guy I was supposed to be madly in love with would not stop trying to hit on me. And not cute flirty hit on me, but more obnoxious egotistical hit on me. Ugh.

Well, being the professional that I am, I decided I needed to move away from this guy and breathe. I was going to do this, I was going to figure it out. I moved into my own space and began to think about the meaning of love.  How does love feel inside? Maybe if I can figure that out, I’ll just be able to express it in my facial expression and movements. But I couldn’t do it.  I couldn’t figure out what it felt like to be in love. Everything I once thought I knew was blank.

After sitting away from everyone for a little while, I noticed my co-star walking towards me. To keep from hearing another cheesy pickup line, I began to skim through my phone messages to look busy. To my luck, I came across an email that was sent to me a little while back that had my answer. It said;

“Love is something to be excited about, to get that burning feeling inside of you.

 It should be something that makes you look forward to each new day.”

Excitement. Burning. Looking forward to each new day. Excitement, Burning. Looking forward to each new day….

Love is about wanting to spend every waking moment with the person you feel it for. It’s about the spark you feel when you’re next to them, when you touch them, when you hold thema. It’s about going to bed excited to wake up next to that person. It’s about never wanting to let go.

I looked up at my co-star and began to see him through different eyes.

Ok. I can do this.

And I did.

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After we shot the commercial I read over the email again and noticed one more thing it said;

“Steal a hug when arms are open, grab a hand when it is lonely,

 give a kiss to fill the silence, say I love you whenever you can.”

I think I will.